Here’s 5 things nobody tells you about hitting rock bottom..
6 years ago I was in the lowest place..
A difficult breakup and decades of avoiding my emotions exploded into an anxious attempt to cope..
For the first time in my life I had more money than I knew what to do with, more choice with women than I ever dreamt and plenty of invitations to all sorts of wild parties and experiences..
A recipe for disaster when you’re in pain.
On the outside it looked like I was having the time of my life, inside I was dying.
Here’s what I wish someone told me then:
Deep sh!t makes for the best manure if you allow it. If you don’t close to the pain and ask for help one day you will look back at this time with tears of gratitude in your eyes, for you will know that what you once cursed, was indeed grace.
The only way forward is through: Stop hiding, stop distracting (destructing) yourself. Pain makes you present and nothing like heightened presence to learn to truly love yourself.
You are responsible for all of it. Not to blame, but response-able. Brushing it under the carpet or resenting someone just delays caring for the wound.. And it won’t take long until it gets infected.
What you disown owns you.
Take a break, change friends, disappear for a week or a few months.
Distance creates clarity.
You will see that much of what you do and whom you hang out with make you sink deeper.
If there aren’t mentors you trust, nature will always be there for you.
Only in silence chaos stops and truth becomes evident.
You feel disillusioned because you were living an illusion. You’ve been living a facade for too long, attracting chaos and toxicity.
Let go of who you think you are and be open and curious for whom you could be, if you TRULY faced your shadows.
And finally.. you’re not alone!
& you can’t do it alone.
Rock bottom is the most stable place from which to build yourself back again..
Just be careful not to build another lie..
Or you’ll soon find yourself at the doors of hell again.